Depression

Today I didn't have a single class, so I slept in, tanned {shhh!}, had a nice quiet McDonalds lunch with a certain cowboy and had great ambitions to shower before I had to work at 3, but it DID NOT happen, not even close. You wanna know why? BLOGGING!  I got sucked into people's blogs I don't even know!
I knew that members of my family are very talented, in many different genres, but these bloggers are insane!!!
I was clicking the next blog on the top of the blog page and stumbled across this bolg that had a way cute layout and header, banner... thingy. (so jealous)
I decided that I to was going to "makeover my blog" and have a cute blog (not that I don't like the layout that I have, hers was just soooo cute)
NO SUCH LUCK!
not only did it take me for-ev-er to find what I was actually looking for, you know the scrapbook looking ones, with the cute cut out buttons and flowers, and I was hoping to find one with a "western" feel. I didn't want to change my whole page or anything, I just wanted to change the top so that my "header thing" was different than my wood floor "layout" that I got off the "create your blog" page here on blogger.com, but the semi what I wanted ones were for a small fee. I was more than bummed.  So I decided to try to make my own. 
I found free digital scrap-booking items, downloaded them, and realized that I needed a program. HA! yeah right.
So then I found the amazing Kevin and Amanda website, which was a beautiful blog in itself. (more on that later) she had a way to change the standard fonts into cool ones, I followed her instructions up until I found out I didn't have the right files and had no clue how to find them.  I'm sure in time I could have figured it out, but at this point I was so frustrated that I just gave up. So I spent some time looking at her blog. {BIG MISTAKE!}
-Her blog is beautiful
-She is so creative
-She's organized
-She has her own scrapbooking ROOM! (that is organized i might add)
-She has a wonderful camera
-She went on a trip to New York with her friends and spent a whole day looking and eating cupcakes!!!

Needless to say I'm having a BIG FAT pity party for myself.  (Arbys is on the way)

I have these wonderful ambitions and goals for my life, that I feel like I am so far from accomplishing.
-my camera is held together with duct-tape
-i can't keep my dorm room clean let alone organized
-I have yet to pass my cosmetology test so I can start the great trek to having my own salon.
-all my scrapbooking supplies sit in my closet at home, well because I already have enough junk here at school, and I promised myself that I would finish the quilt I started for Jeb (this summer) before I brought all of that up here.

Blahh! I'm just gunna quit :)

On a better note, my dorm neighbor just bought Secretariat so we are going to have a movie night here in herbie :) sweatshirts, socks, pillows, and blankets included because the lobby is still freezing!

I promise to never mention anything about this post ever again.